Missing you...

So I probably shouldn't have gotten looking at some of the websites that I did because it got me super sad and missing my baby Bryce so much that it just hurts so much more than words can ever explain! I never thought that after 2 years that it would still be this hard. One of the websites that I got to looking at is called Now I lay me down to sleep,( it is on my favorite places list) it is professional photographers that take pictures of babies that have already, or are about to pass on, and it is the most beautiful stuff I have ever seen in my life. Anyway, I just got to missing my baby and just wanted to share one of my favorite poems with you, some of my closest friends and family. I love you!

I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today
I asked what makes a mother and I know I heard him say…
A mother has a baby, this we know is true.
But can you be a mother when your baby’s not with you?
Yes, you can, he replied with confidence in his voice,
I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a life time, and others for a day
And some I send to feel your womb, but there’s no need to stay.
I just don’t understand this, God, I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with other children and say,
“We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here…
I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly, my mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her each day,
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear
Mommy don’t be sad today, I ‘m your baby and I’m here.”
So you see, my dear sweet one, your children are okay
Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they’ll stay.
They’ll wait for you with me, until your lesson is through
And on the day that you come home, they’ll be at the gates for you.
So now you see, what makes a mother, it’s the feeling in your heart
It’s the love you had so much of, right from the very start.
-unknown author