I have to do another post for today!

So I was getting irritated with my husband because he took the external hard drive to work with him which had pictures on it that I need to edit. Gosh Darn him! Well while in my rambling and looking for something else constructive to do I came across some pictures...it's not like I haven't seen them in a long time....they just struck a MAJOR cord with me and really sent me into an emotional loop...(and put into perspective how dumb it was to get mad over a dumb hard drive)

Is he really gone?? Am I really dealing with this?? I would think that I would know how to handle death...after all I have delt with some loss in my day. I don't know what it was tonight that really put me over the edge, but tonight it is killing me and I have to say that the only thing that really keeps me going is the fact that I know I will be with him again...I know that he is taking care of my baby boy for me till I can be there with them. He is doing what needs to be done for our family when we meet again......and for this I am so very thankful!

I miss my dad terribly...who is going to be there when I buy my first house?? Who is going to be there to tell me what is wrong with my car? Who am I going to talk to about vacations...something that he loved very much...a good vacation!?!? I guess I will just try to keep in mind the big picture and that he will be there for me when I pass, holding Bryce's hand and cheering me on.

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Dad, your guiding hand on my shoulder will remain with me forever. ~Author Unknown

I love you dad!!