Okay....this is a place where I share my thoughts of happiness anger, frustration, sadness and so on.... so I guess it's okay to post some of the latter every now and then??
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I have been in this wierd funk lately an I just can't take it anymore. I don't know what it is, I am so sad and could sleep all day long (im sure part of that has something to do with my iron being pretty low) but I just have no oomph anymore. I have no motivation to do anything. I love Valentines day and I had all these things I wanted to do for Ryan, Jadynn and Trey, but I can't get myself to do them. Am I the only mom who didn't get her kids anything for Valentines day?? I am feeling horrible about it. All I want is sugar and I can't do that with me failing my first glucose test. Today was kinda the straw that broke the camels back....I have been bawling and sleeping almost all day. I'm angry, hurt, sad and alone all in one. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like there is something huge missing in my life and I am grasping for something and I have no idea what it is. I miss my baby boy and I miss my dad terribly. I am just struggling to find anything positive in my life lately and it's really starting to drag me down. Anyway....I guess that I felt that if I wrote some things down that it might help a little so that is the reason for this post. Do or don't read it, it's more for me. Thanks for reading my bubber if you did.
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P.S. Trey has surgery on Wednesday morning. I'm starting to get a little nervous for him, but I think he will do fine.
P.S.S. On an upside....I have 99 days to go in my pregger-cy! I need it to go fast!
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6 comments:
OH Ali pooh.. I love you... Keep your head up and keep getting out of bed, you will feel good again :) you have soo much! Let those gorgeous kids of yours cheer you up :) They love love love their mommy!!!
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time lately. I hope you get out of it soon. Wish I had some great ideas on what can help, but I don't. Maybe a new, fun hobby that you have always wanted to take up.
Sorry you are feeling so down. Something that helps me, is no matter how much you don't want to, take a shower in the morning, do your hair and put makeup on. It really does help! You can do this, you ARE a strong women!!
Sorryypur feeling so down but you have to have these times to appreciate the happier times. Don't worry we didn't getvour little one valentines either.
I did not even get my husband anything let alone the kids!! Feel better now. I know the feeling you are talking about. Life just gets so heavy sometimes. Then you see all those chipper happy women that really I kinda want to smack. I hope you get out of your funk. Anyone that knows me knows I have my share of them too.
Don't feel so bad about valentines day, I didn't get my husband or kids anything, I didn't even really see my husband on valentines day he was so busy. Maybe one of these days we should go eat at the new chick fil a and let our kids play on the playground while we eat! Let me know!
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